36

Complete exhaustion. That's what I am. Compared to the days of adrenaline rushes, today's sleep deprivation brought out my early-morning character. The personality I create that no one should see. The one that comes out when I've been woken up against my will. The one that frowns and grumbles when being spoken too unnecessarily. The personality I have that brings out my crabby and moodiness. Leave me alone and don't return until I start to smile. Except today I couldn't be avoided. I has too much to do, which stressed me out and angered me more. I'm glad it's over. No more projects with people that get under my skin. No more phone calls for no appartent reasons. No more meetings that get nothing done. I have individual exams and then time to rest. I'm glad it's finally come. It's been too long.

The End.

31

I'm finally able to breathe. At least for a few minutes. It may only be for a short amount of time, but it feels good. I'm finally ending classes and on top of that, half the stress. As each assignment is ending, I feel less trapped. Of course, I have two more presentations, and three more written projects but that's not the point. It's ending, and I'm still surviving. Makes me think I can get through the last bit (or at least pass out trying). I'm still running on little sleep most nights, lots of coffee, and pure adrenaline.
The End.

30

This term has been hectic and these weeks even worse. Full of busy days and lots of confusion.
Lately I feel so stretched out. Imagine a fruit-rollup that's been pulled at every corner just before the hole starts ripping in the middle. That's me. Like a trampoline that's just about to give out. I've grown up into this super responsible person that too many depend on that. At work I find myself doing responsibilities that aren't entailed. At school I'm always depended upon as a leader-type unless there is a strong character willing (there never is). With friends, I arrange the group outings and times together. But it's not fun anymore.
The problem with this is if I give up I feel like a slacker and everything seems to fall through the cracks. Work would be ten times more stress, school projects would never get done, and I'd lose out on great friendships.
There's no win-win here. Maybe someday. I hope.

The End.

28

I'm shivering. It's cold in the house. I should really have some tea or something. I need the caffiene anyway. The whole day was full of stress and arguements.
Group assignments in University are a joke. How can you say 'this is like the REAL world' when in the real world school and work aren't in the way of group meetings?... it is your work! There's no time for anything. We fudge time by skipping the ends of something and arriving late to others. We collect our thoughts in confusion and aggrivation. We ignore our stomachs just to not waste the time consuming anything but knowledge.
I sit here in this cold house as a habit from these learned abilities. Ignore yourself. Ignore the time. Focus.
But it's time to listen and feed myself in warmth and nutrition. The life of a University student.

The End.

3

countdown til the end is on. projects are finishing up and finding study time is getting more pressed. but i must say, the closer we get to finishing these assignments the crazier our mindset is. nothing is thought up normally and everything is said with laughter. i guess that's what makes it still tolerable. the surprises of humour are always worth the time. today didn't lack any either. it's nice having groups of friends that can joke about everything especially in serious situations. i'm not sure about you but serious and ackward moments to me always need a little humour and something that still maintains amusement.
i'm still finding time to stress though. and still gaining the nerve to figure this girl and boy situation.
wish me luck and i'll wish it likewise.
the end.

1

it's been a long week. a very long week. miscommunications. mishaps. missed sleep. missed calls.
classes are ended oh-so fast and they're taking me with 'em. i've lost a lot of time fretting on too many things that shouldn''t be my focus right now. but isn't that how it always happens?
when does the drama happen at a time where nothing else is happening i ask? never.
but does it always have to happen around finals?
i'm not one that can push things to the back of my head to come back to later. it lingers. its stresses. it pulls my stomach into knots. meals are eaten with queeziness and sleep has strange dreams in this mood. i get the nerves like no other.
hidden under so much disguise is the nervous wreck of me. only seen with a hidden glance. discovering this side of me is what one rarely does.
two more weeks and i can finally deal with these things properly again.
the end.